- What I said: Watch this show it's really good
- What I meant: For the love of God please watch this I need friends who understand my pain I need someone to talk about it with that hasn't heard all my opinions a billion times please I am begging you
Do you know what fandom has done for me?
Fandom made me feel normal. Fandom taught me about myself, taught me sexuality and gender and taught me that I don’t have to listen to people when they tell me I’m too harsh on men or that my expectations are too high. It gave me people to talk to when I felt alone and it gave me a voice when I thought I didn’t have one.
But more than anything, fandom has given me fanfiction.
I’ve been writing fic since I was twelve. I wasn’t any good in the beginning - none of us are - but fanfiction and the constant feedback helped me to realize the pitfalls of my writing, the tactics I fell back on again and again.
Fanfiction taught me how to develop a world. It taught me how to develop characters as individuals, it taught me about character flaws and character strengths, and about motive and emotion and so many other things.
Fanfiction has given me a expansive vocabulary that surprises most people.
Fanfiction has allowed me to explore sexuality and gender and kinks to my heart’s desire and all without ever having to face the judgmental looks of the real world. Because I am a female and a female shouldn’t have these thoughts or urges, a “proper female” should not know about the things I know about.
You know what else fandom and fanfiction has done? It told me otherwise. It told me that I was beautiful and perfect just the way I am. I don’t need to change and I don’t need to be ashamed and anyone who makes me feel like that is an asshole.
You might not think I’m a good writer and that’s okay. On my worst days, I’d agree with you. But in my bones, I know I was born to do this one thing. I was born to write and fanfiction continues to help me develop this skill into something I can hopefully call my career one day.
Fandom is the breeding ground for the next generation of authors and screenwriters and fanfiction is the tool we use to get better.
So don’t you dare mock fandom and don’t you dare mock fanfiction because it is so much more important than your shitty television show will ever be.
never doubt my ability to watch the same episode of something ten thousand times and remain just as interested and entertained every single time
person: so do you watch any tv shows?
me: are you sure you’re ready for this conversation
I’m just waiting for the day when every TV review will talk about the number of fics the series is generating on AO3 and ff.net as a measure of success, and the reviewers try to predict what this week’s episode is going to mean for all the major ships, and media journalism will actually be interesting again.
In response to a fan named “Rabbit” on the May 5, 2014 Geek Blast podcast interview with Clark Gregg about whether he ships “Capsicoul.” (ie, Captain America/Coulson)
Clark Gregg: “I do find Chris Evans as dreamy as Phil Coulson finds Captain America/Steve Rogers. I know that me, Clark Gregg, I tend to ship kind of Phil/Hill or Philanoff, but I’ve seen some really, really excellent videos online and some fanfic that show Phil Coulson deeply in love with Steve Rogers or Hawkeye, and I find those spectacular…I do love them.”